haven't updated in a while...gawd .__.
i'll have some upcoming photoshoots with the awesome~eatmyshortss pretty soon, at least once she's done with her thesis and stuff (and that's mainly why some of our shoots have been postponed). By the time she gradutes we'll be posting stuff again

next friday i'll be having a photo shoot at UP Diliman, which i hope will be fun it was a spurr of the moment idea so...haha.


meanwhile, these are some things i want to learn...

- basic photography (at least fashion photography)
- hair styling and make-up
- learn how to REALLY sew


i might transfer schools next year as well, which hopefully will turn out well it's not a very well-known school but i figured it's better to go to a school you feel comfortable in. instead of going to a school where you're sure you will only use 10% of what you've learned.

it's kind of like a wake up call i guess, because i really want to follow my dreams this time, because i've finally found what makes me happy.

i want to study fashion design.

the only reason i stayed in my current school was because of the name it holds, but what's the use of the school's name if i feel half-assed about what i do?

i took advertising arts because i knew i could draw a little. not all that great, but i know stuff. also because i knew there was money there...but the truth is i didn't really know what i wanted. at first i wanted to become a manga artist, but i guess it was just a passing fancy. i can't stand drawing comics now. haha.

but then when i had some experiences in fashion, make-up, event planning, and several other related jobs, i had fun. a lot of fun in fact that even when i was doing some work with barely any sleep, i wanted to work more.

i loved that feeling.

back then, i really wanted to design clothes. but there were things that stopped me, a lot of things. there were times i began to feel that i was meant to be under someone...but that doesn't satisfy me.

i have to believe in my own abilities and capabilities. i know that there are things i can achieve on my own.

i just have to stay focused.